Saturday, August 16, 2008
arghhhhhhh! you know there's this quote that goes 'if you have nothing good to say then dont say anything?' or something along that line. OMGawd. this is a common case that yet another saying 'practice what you preach' is hard to keep.
actually, i dont really follow that but i guess what jayde said to me today made sense. lol. (WJ -she's the crazy person i met online) she's quite innovative too. when i told her i had problems with not saying something. i prefer to speak my mind although it can be like word diarhoeaa since sometimes it doesnt register how it may affect others. so she was like 'uuhhhh' (i think the word diarhoeaa stunned her) and gave a solution. i shall share for all to learn! xD
Steps to Feed A Good Mad(anger)
1. Write down all the mean/rude/vulgar/thoughtless words you want to say to the person's face.
2. (optional) Read it once more. (can add more as you go on -ahhaa!)
3. Tear or Burn it up. (it doesnt make sense to burn especially now 7th month; =x)
[no offense to my fellow church ppl, i get very nervous about 7th month, especially with the influence i grew up with]
okae. its suppose to give me a satisfaction. havent tried it yet coz right now i'm as happy as a bug. (are bugs actually happy?) BUT i did write down stuff i have been biting down on for the past few days and silly me, i straightaway threw it down the rubbish chute before ripping it up. =/ for some weird reason i felt a bit bad.
so.. yeah. sorry to MOST of the people i had actually intentionally or unintentionally insulted over the years. seriously, unless i hate you (which in that case, i'm not sorry at all), i will never ever insult you.
i mean seriously, i'm not that insane to go looking for trouble -i got enough trouble as it is! so yeah.
MOVING ON!
today was boring. it RAINED. so it was the end of my mood to go to east coast to meet church people. was dying to go coz wanted to play some games (captain's ball, volleyball, whatever!) then the rain came and i was like 'ew, no way i'm getting my legs painted with squelchy mud. previous incident happened this year when i was walking home and mud splashed up my legs and it dried up, i had to walk from the mac's at east coast back to my house feeling uncomfortable and totally PO'd.
my ankle keeps having twinges of pain. darn! i think it was cos of wednesday or thursday before, i kinda like tripped over something. i swear i didnt see anything there but something was blocking my foot's way. of course, i freaked and i was like 'omg, if got any gui, please forgive me! i didnt mean any harm. so sorry.'
it didnt help that i saw a phatom person at WJ's estate area as we walked to the mouth of the road when i took a cab home. i practically burst into tears coz i SAW the person cross the street and there was the sound of footsteps thwacking on the grass but the person disappeared once it reached those grey, metal thingies (dunno what are those) as we were walking past it.
i think WJ was damn PO'd at me for being childish but i couldnt help it. come on! if you saw a person from your side angle and he's supposedly to cut into your path when you and said person's paths will cross but never did (and he wasnt in the surrounding area as well), you'd be creeped out also right?
i think WJ is totally gonna ban me from his house after he sees this post but i just need to get it off my chest. if not i'll keep rewinding it in my mind.
it's like the incident in malaysia when i saw a hand (the bones of a hand) waving at me from the tent entrance after i heard a women/girl's voice crying and a white figure at my camp member's tent area. ZOMGawd! i really cried then and kept praying until i passed out.
of course, the assisstant instructor told me the next day that our overnight survival camp area was kinda known for ghosts but it was on the opposite side of the ravine which my tent area was situated next to! i baulked at him then but on hindsight, it was better i didnt know until we were heading back to singapore.
actually, i dont really follow that but i guess what jayde said to me today made sense. lol. (WJ -she's the crazy person i met online) she's quite innovative too. when i told her i had problems with not saying something. i prefer to speak my mind although it can be like word diarhoeaa since sometimes it doesnt register how it may affect others. so she was like 'uuhhhh' (i think the word diarhoeaa stunned her) and gave a solution. i shall share for all to learn! xD
Steps to Feed A Good Mad(anger)
1. Write down all the mean/rude/vulgar/thoughtless words you want to say to the person's face.
2. (optional) Read it once more. (can add more as you go on -ahhaa!)
3. Tear or Burn it up. (it doesnt make sense to burn especially now 7th month; =x)
[no offense to my fellow church ppl, i get very nervous about 7th month, especially with the influence i grew up with]
okae. its suppose to give me a satisfaction. havent tried it yet coz right now i'm as happy as a bug. (are bugs actually happy?) BUT i did write down stuff i have been biting down on for the past few days and silly me, i straightaway threw it down the rubbish chute before ripping it up. =/ for some weird reason i felt a bit bad.
so.. yeah. sorry to MOST of the people i had actually intentionally or unintentionally insulted over the years. seriously, unless i hate you (which in that case, i'm not sorry at all), i will never ever insult you.
i mean seriously, i'm not that insane to go looking for trouble -i got enough trouble as it is! so yeah.
MOVING ON!
today was boring. it RAINED. so it was the end of my mood to go to east coast to meet church people. was dying to go coz wanted to play some games (captain's ball, volleyball, whatever!) then the rain came and i was like 'ew, no way i'm getting my legs painted with squelchy mud. previous incident happened this year when i was walking home and mud splashed up my legs and it dried up, i had to walk from the mac's at east coast back to my house feeling uncomfortable and totally PO'd.
my ankle keeps having twinges of pain. darn! i think it was cos of wednesday or thursday before, i kinda like tripped over something. i swear i didnt see anything there but something was blocking my foot's way. of course, i freaked and i was like 'omg, if got any gui, please forgive me! i didnt mean any harm. so sorry.'
it didnt help that i saw a phatom person at WJ's estate area as we walked to the mouth of the road when i took a cab home. i practically burst into tears coz i SAW the person cross the street and there was the sound of footsteps thwacking on the grass but the person disappeared once it reached those grey, metal thingies (dunno what are those) as we were walking past it.
i think WJ was damn PO'd at me for being childish but i couldnt help it. come on! if you saw a person from your side angle and he's supposedly to cut into your path when you and said person's paths will cross but never did (and he wasnt in the surrounding area as well), you'd be creeped out also right?
i think WJ is totally gonna ban me from his house after he sees this post but i just need to get it off my chest. if not i'll keep rewinding it in my mind.
it's like the incident in malaysia when i saw a hand (the bones of a hand) waving at me from the tent entrance after i heard a women/girl's voice crying and a white figure at my camp member's tent area. ZOMGawd! i really cried then and kept praying until i passed out.
of course, the assisstant instructor told me the next day that our overnight survival camp area was kinda known for ghosts but it was on the opposite side of the ravine which my tent area was situated next to! i baulked at him then but on hindsight, it was better i didnt know until we were heading back to singapore.
what we could have been, 10:09 pm.
